It is way to big for her, but they honestly didn't have any that were smaller. It was the first thing she wanted to show Joe when he got home from work and she decided she wanted to wear it to go get mail with Joe because she needed to practice walking around in it. Anyone that knows her should not be surprised that it is pink with a little bit of purple. And you can't really tell, but I think the thing that tipped the scales in this ones favor is the little purple plush kitten that is clipped onto the zipper of one of the pockets. I was a bit surprised that she decided against the few that had princesses or other characters that she loved. I pointed out the ones with the group of princesses in particular because it was higher and I thought she would pick it when she informed me that she had seen but didn't want it. I asked her why. Her response, "I am not sure but it just doesn't look like a kindergarten backpack."
There it is.
She is so ready for kindergarten. Her brain is curious and thoughtful. She is willing to try things and is excited to learn. She desperately wants to be able to read, is constantly writing notes and randomly starts counting to see how high she can get. On one hand she has some very specific ideas about what will happen when she gets to kindergarten but then just minutes later she is asking questions about what it is going to be like.
The other day after we registered, she asked me what her schedule was going to be. It is going to be a transition for both her and I as she is going to be going 5 days a week in the morning instead of 3 full days in the middle of the week. I was explaining it to her and then she said, "But Mama, that is going to give us less time together."
"Yeah, that's true," was all I could get out in my regular voice before it was going to crack.
There are so many great things that are going to happen this year for her. She will really start to read. We are keeping her where is has been going to preschool so the class size will be small and art will be plentiful. She is already in love with Miss Megan. The list of great things is endless.
But even though all those great things are going to happen, I can't help but feel a little sad about it all. I shouldn't feel this upset. Every single parent in the country has sent their kid to kindergarten and lived to tell the tale. It is so silly (and not at the same time) that I am sitting here sobbing as I try to write.
We still have over a month until she starts. Weeks of summer left and we will enjoy them. I am not going to burn the time we have together now worrying about what is to come, especially since what is to come is such a step in the right direction. There is so much more that is coming that is just going to be amazing. But, right now, for these few moments, I am sad.
Nope, I haven't learned to stop time. And honestly, I wouldn't really want to. I have got a front row seat to something that is going to be incredible to watch. She is such a lucky little girl and will do amazing things, whatever those things end up being. I mean, really, how could she not with such an awesome new backpack.
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